Principle no 1. Learn from the past and then get the heck out of there.

I don’t regret my past.

I stopped writing for a while (a long while, I can say). Don’t know why… I just felt like I could start the day with something written down. I’d like to start again. I wish for a new beginning.

I remember I promissed to write more in English. I remember what I wrote in the past. I see now how things changed and I am so happy about it. I want to write more about the people in my life, about the „as is” versus „to be”, perhaps I will write more about my job, or where I see myself in the coming years. I would also like not to leave creativity behind, I’d like to include you in my posts and to learn more about you, the ones who are reading this.

I need suggestions, I need inspiration and I miss everything about me. Just wanted to remind myself how I used to be and what I have turned into along the way.

Things change, and so are we.


It’s crazy how everything that it’s meant to be always finds its way… 


Second chance

We all have a second chance. It’s called tomorrow…

How come that when you stop writing, people that once used to search your name on Google, stop doing it?

I’ve noticed a change in their behaviour, or so I think. I don’t know if there’s only one person, or if there are more than one. I just figured… when do you realise you stop being yourself and pretend?

How often do you fake your reality or, better said, how often do you trick you mind in believing something that you just think you want?

I wonder, with all this technology and fast-forwarding lifes we live, don’t we deserve a coffee break, so we can just sit back and relax, while thinking of nothing? Unfortunately, we’re trapped in this thing called society, where we can no longer be just ourselves and we need to adapt to the surroundings. We can just have a smoke and dream with the eyes wide open, when suddenly, one of the three phones in that purse rings. And, hump up, I’m awake again. Doesn’t this happen in real life too? When we seem to have gained it (almost) all, don’t (almost) always some thing happens? A thing that we might not expected, wanted, wished for, dreamt at, or whatever? We should just stop letting other stuff control our dreams, our expectations, ourselves…

We apparently have everything in control. Except our hearts. Therefore, one should always listen to its heart… but take its brain with it! I’m an optimistic, but I know that dreaming has not helped anyone so far without any action… Here’s a piece of advice we should all practice… starting tomorrow 🙂


2012 Highlights – To Do List

Hi everyone! And welcome to 2012, our last year on Earth as we know it. Bull*it! I’m sorry, I just got carried away…

Anyway, we never know what to expect. Therefore, I made a list of To dos this year. Here we go:

1. Some people tell me I should work in a circus; or, at least, that I would fit in there. Well, I can’t tell you why they say this, but I will definitely go to see some action at Saltimbanco by Cirque Du Soleil, on 8th of February.

2. I always wanted to organise a Masquerade. As I didn’t have the chance to do it yet, I thought that paticipating in one would do for now. So, Venice, hope to see you soon! If not, the Masquerade should come to me!

3. An Ocean of White… Sounds good, right? Even if I’m not such a big fan of white, it’s never too late to try it. Since I couldn’t go in Amsterdam ( or Prague…) to be a part of it, they thought it would be nice to send the show over here. Thank you! Hope to see you there. If something happens and I don’t make it, please come and find me and drag me there! Thanks again!

4. Visit Dad. Yeah, we don’t see each other very often, but this year it’s a must! Canada, here I come! For the third time…. So, dad, please take me to Niagara Falls this time and put me in a plane via New York. I REALLY have to go there! Thanks in advance!













5. You might know I was a spotswoman some time ago. Well, I thought I might give it a shot.. again. If you don’t know yet, Corpoarate Games will be the largest Multi-Sport corporate competition ever to be seen in Romania. So, wish me ( and to my colleagues participants) luck!

6. Since I was 18 I wished I had my own car. I didn’t get it so far. The time has come to bring myself together and get one! I don’t know which name it will have, nor the model or the type. All I know is that it should fit best my personality and ambitions. And, of course, it should be able to stay with me until I will be done paying the rates…. :)) Oh, God! If you know someone who wants to donate one, please contact me. Or if you’d like to give me a gift, you know what would make me happy. So thanks, I think it would be enough.

The list is not over yet. These are the first things I put in my mind for this year, besides health for my parents, my brother and my grandparents, besides happiness and joy, besides all the best for my dear ones and besides a career growth, when the time will come.

So THANK YOU 2011 for a great year! And Goodbye! Let 2012 bring us everything we didn’t get by now….


My gift for you

(…) Sint din ce in ce mai convins ca nu e vorba de combinatii haotice, ca biologia si mistica se pupa pe undeva si sint legate printr-un sens adinc, dar ca nimic nu e prestabilit, ni se da numai ocazia si noi alegem daca sa o luam sau sa-i dam cu piciorul si ca daca alegerea presupune dificultate, daca presupune munca, inseamna ca e adevarata. Chimia se simte la inceput, dar se consolideaza in timp. Sau poate nu se simte deloc de la inceput, dar e posibil sa fie invatata sau primita ca un dar, ca o transmutare a elementelor, dar numai atita vreme cat nu-ti dispretuiesti corpul. (…)

Daca te iei dupa filme si muzica si articole de revista, ai zice ca toata lumea cauta dragostea sau ca o pretuieste mai mult decit orice, dar nu e asa, ni se pare ca sint atitea lucruri mai serioase, cind o avem, renuntam asa usor la ea pentru alte prostii, crezind ca e o resursa nelimitata, dar nu e. Cum imi spune mama cind ma cert cu C., impaca-te, ca viata e scurta si n-are rost sa alergi dupa himere. Inselaciunea e o astfel de himera, ti se inchide inima si ti se pare ca partenerul e un film pe care l-ai vazut de prea multe ori, cind de fapt un om e o descoperire continua, uiti ca traiesti foarte putin si n-ai timp destul sa-l iubesti cum trebuie. Inselaciunea e un fel de ADHD, in loc sa te concentrezi pe un om, te risipesti, e isteria aia de adolescent care sta acasa cind prietenii lui sunt la o petrecere si isi inchipuie ca lucruri nemaipomenite se intampla in alta parte in absenta lui- in cazul adulterului, e teama ca undeva acolo se fac tot felul de nebunii senzuale care tie, blocat la un singur partener, iti scapa printre degete. Teama de banalitate, de rutina, despre care acelasi Kierkegaard spunea ca e sursa tutror relelor, e un alt motor. La multi barbati, si mai nou si la femei, poligamia e o demonstratie de forta facuta pentru aplauzele prietenilor. Vinatoarea de trofee se plateste scump, esti condamnat la inconsistenta, la o viata de fantoma, nu apuci sa te bucuri mai mult de cineva, sa-l lasi sa ti se imprime in memoria afectiva, sa ajungi sa-i pretuiesti stingaciile sau acele particularitati pe care le numim defecte, sa-i descoperi calitatile mai putin vizibile, unicitatea si frumusetea sa. (…)

In cele din urma, inseli si pentru ca ti-e prea bine si ai uitat cum e sa-ti fie rau, ca atunci cind te vindeci de o boala si uiti cum te-ai chinuit si reiei obiceiurile nesanatoase. Ai dragoste si crezi ca e normal sa o ai si te plictiseste. De cite ori o sa ajung in acest punct, sper ca o sa-mi amintesc de momentele cind clantaneam de frig in plin soare, cind cautam afectiune si dadeam peste pereti reci.

Dan Sociu pentru Elle Magazine, Nov 2011

Am vrut sa va transmit asta pentru ca acum e momentul sa apreciem ce avem, mai ales pe cei din jurul nostru; pentru ca in ultima vreme am asistat la multa superficialitate, pentru ca aceasta perioada e didicata dragostei fata de cei apropiati si pentru ca acest mesaj mi-a ajuns la inima intr-un ajun singuratic….

100% Christmas

it’s the most wonderful time…

Now, with all these moments of celebration, with hopes and dreams gathered around the Christmas Tree, I wish you all be with the ones you love. Be grateful to what you have. Be proud of your family, your friends and closed ones. Say „Thank you!” for your gifts, for your love and give your best. It’s time to enjoy life and holidays, it’s time to give and to receive.

Think of all your accomplishments and wish for more. You can not ask for less than what you deserve. Be as happy as you can be and smile. Be a „Secret Santa”, be someones’ gift for Christmas, be blessed!

I wish you wonderful moments of happiness and joy! Have a Merry Christmas!



I know so much…

… yet I can’t remember anything 🙂

I haven’t invented that saying, but I’d like to adopt it.

I was just thinking the other days what is that exact thing that we need to feel complete. Is that a good car, a great job, is that a person who makes you feel you’re the king of the world, is that a journey you have to complete?

And so I’ve realised that I just need to have a 100% hold on me. I’ve realised that everyone around me seems to be looking for that something. Well, I’m sorry to dissapoint you so, but that something… well… that something just doesn’t exist; YOU are that special everything you are looking for, and everything you are is written within you. Don’t you see that what you are thinking happens? Don’t you wish you’d be more happier, and, during this time, you’re complaining about your miserable life? I really think I’m self-suficient. I really thing that I would really die without the ones I love around me, but most of all, I’d be lost without me, I’d be self-distructed if I’d think for only one second I’m no good. I’m good enough to make me happy, and I can even make other ones happy. And, well, I’m not getting any better than being myself.

What is that something you’re looking for? I’ve heard that life is what happens while you’re busy making plans. I know I’m never patient enough, but I just don’t live like I will have all the time in the world. I don’t live like today is my last day neither. But I live like I’m trying to take the best of it, and I’m willing to do that now. I can’t waste time, because life won’t wait for me, it’s not like the bus, if you lost it, don’t worry, there will be another one in about 5 minutes.

Don’t waste your time, go live it and enjoy it, go tell everyone how happy you are you can see, hear and laugh. Go get that sexy thing you’re thinking of and kiss each other. Go there, anywhere you want to go, and then get back. But never get back to black days, rainy nights and sleepless weeks.

I know this is not everything, but I know that everything can lie in me.

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